`I am Jack's wasted life...

[maisie laeh cree]

"There is one moment in your life when you are with someone and you feel like the world has stopped and your life seems to be perfect. Make sure you never lose love that person."

Yah, so I changed the quote up a bit. And yes, my version is more depressing but it's also much better advice. Life is a depressing thing, okay? So sue me.

When you think about it, if you do love that person you're going to get fucked over in the end. You should just stick with being their friend and enjoying your time with them rather then labeling it and shit. Because you will lose them. Just sayin, ya know.

[maisie laeh cree]

I remember when I was younger, I always felt kind of weird. Ya know, just different and out of place. Never really felt like things were going right or that I knew what being happy was. I remember looking at all of the other fucking people and thinking, 'You know Maisie, this is just a phase. You're going to grow up and things are going to start getting better. You're going to find somewhere where you just fit. You're going to smile a lot. Just give it time. Things are going to start getting better. Like, look at all of these other people. I'm sure they just waited and gave it time and now they're living their lives to the fullest'.

But... it's weird, ya know? 'Cause like, it never really felt like it was getting better. It felt like it was getting worse. Every year I just felt like everything was just slowing and down and getting shittier and shittier. And after a few years, it started going by months. Every month seemed harder and harder to deal with. And then it started going by weeks. Not too long ago, I think it started going by days...

So now what the hell am I supposed to do? Why the fuck isn't it starting to slowly get better yet like I once thought it would?
What happens if it starts going by hours... and then minutes... and then seconds... ?

What fucking happens after the fucking seconds?! Milli-seconds?! 'Cause if so what the hell happens after that? Am I going to rot into nothing?

I wonder if that's what happened to Jack...
Did he feel the hours... the minutes... ?
Did he hear the ticking of the seconds until he just couldn't take it anymore?

Am I going to reach that point?